I am struggling emotionally and it is impacting me physically. The holidays last year were emotionally draining and I see the same playing out as the holiday season approaches. Just need to get through the next 10 days.
Striving for honesty and sobriety. Much less anger and resentments. My thoughtlessness caused pain. Misinterpreted many things. Communication failures. Could not communicate my inferiorities and fear. All clouded by anger and alcohol. Needed to feel appreciation, caring and attention and did not receive. Must accept will never experience closure.
Bad Day #1
9th grade. Mother suffering the ravages of MS. Father an angry and cruel alcoholic, smoking 3 packs a day. Mom in Mercy Hospital. Painful leg tremors, surgery to severe Achilles’ tendons. While in surgery, father arrives at Mercy Hospital with chest pains. Father dies. Mother suffers nervous breakdown. What’s a boy to do? Just cope?